Life

Its hard to understand things sometimes; maybe because you are not involved in that situation or because you are too far involved in that situation. But at times we are able to pull ourselves out of the daily-routine and tiresome thoughts, and just clear our minds. It is unusual that having this clear mind sometimes allows things to make more sense than when we try to make sense of them...it helps us to realize two things: either everything is one, or everything is nothing. Neither is more pessimistic or optimistic than the other, just different ways of viewing the same things.

I have spent a lot of time in trains and planes and buses recently and giving myself a chance to think..I have meditated with monks and done yoga with tribes-people. I have done many things to dig deeper into myself and dig deeper into the trials of our mind and of our thought-processes. Desire, needs, sensations, satisfaction, happiness, fulfilment. All feelings that we feel need to be quenched in one way or another. These generally come about with some sort of attraction or attachment to a particular person, feeling or thing...loosing this attachment helps us clear our minds to gain a better understanding of why we think the way we do. Gaining knowledge of ourselves and knowledge of nature brings us closer to a knowledge of life...I will not dig deep enough to ask of goals or ambitions, ambitions create depression and egotistical longings. Gaining control over our mind and our body is the key to feeling better...or atleast this is the case for myself.

I feel that the most powerful and meaningful sensation and desire is that of significance. To whom or what are we important? Love and other emotions can become tainted and egos constanltly get in the way of what we really will feel fulfilled with. I constantly, annoyingly, ask my friends and people I meet if they would truly, truly, feel fulfilled if they got to that point that they are shooting for...if that is the place where they see themselves looking back and forward with a smile. Of course accomplishments are great, but thats living in the past moreso than the present. It is difficult to find our true happiness, but we certainly have the right and ability to pursue it. I hope only the best for everyone in this pursute.